So – I guess today’s question du jour so to speak, is What flaw do you have and how do you over-come it?
I have a Monday morning confessional to share. And I share this knowing it’s actually Sunday as I’m typing this because I’m sitting in my bed with the hubby asleep (and snoring!) beside me, the cats asleep (and snoring!) at my feet. Is it any wonder I choose to write now?
My confession is this….I am an overly ambitious person. Big news right? Not! Now I totally get why you are under-whelmed by this confession. I mean you should have been in the car with Alex and I last night during our mad dash to the mall. (Which that is a whole ‘nother story because turns out mall shopping on Halloween eve is a bad bad plan.)
Stephanie: Honey, I think I have a problem. I always WANT. I love what we have, but I want more bigger, better things.
Alex: I know.
Stephanie: What do you mean “I know?”
Alex: I mean I know. I know because you are the kind of person who is constantly striving to reach the mountain top. So I know you always want a little more.
Stephanie: Oh. Well I don’t want you to think I’m an unhappy person. I just want…well I want …. Crap, I don’t know how to share what I want.
Alex starts laughing at me hysterically as we finish our drive to the mall at this point.
You see – While I’m EXTREMELY grateful to have a job, a job that allows my husband and myself own a home and not live paycheck to paycheck, in this economy I want the ability to be a part-time mom. Mind you, my brain does not allow the whole lack of mommy-hood aspect to reason it down from this strident climb towards “And Beyond” as the famous Buzz Lightyear put it. I also want new floors for the house (our current ones are ugly, but that is what rugs are for), new job for Alex (again his pays ok, etc but no room for growth hence my frustrations), and heck a trip to Italy is on the list of wants. What can I say, when we met THE BUZZ LIGHTYEAR on our honeymoon I was inspired.
Having confessed this aspect of my failings, I have to ask if you have any failings? I don’t think y’all are perfect, my interwebs friends, but am I alone in this here desire? I tend not to think I’m a crummy person or alone, and Alex thinks I’m decent enough too. Yet having flaws that can be construed as both a virtue AND a flaw tends to skew your brain processes.